The Intimacy of Silence

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding." (Proverbs 3:5)

Here is a hard sentence. If Jesus must give you an exact answer to every prayer, then he cannot yet trust you with the intimacy of his silence. Read it again, slowly.

We think of the silence as a withholding, a punishment, an absence, or at best a delay. And so we grade our prayer lives by what we can point at. This is the answer. This is what he did. Look what came through. But if the only time we will trust God is when he hands us what we asked for, and the only answers we will accept are the ones our senses can verify, then we are living in a very elementary view of grace. That is a child's faith, and there is no shame in beginning there, for every one of us does, and God is patient with beginners.

But he has more for you than the beginning. There is a kind of nearness that exists only in the quiet, a knowing between two people who no longer need to fill the room with words. A husband and wife find it after twenty years. Old friends have it on a porch, saying nothing, and closer for it. That intimacy cannot be given to a person who demands proof every time, because the demand keeps the whole relationship at the level of a transaction.

So turn the question around from the one you have been asking. You have been asking whether you can trust God in the silence. Ask instead whether he can trust you with it, whether he can be quiet with you and know you will not go looking for a god who talks more.