Between the Two Ponds
One passage. One idea. A few quiet minutes. Short devotional readings for people being formed by grace, written from a small chair beside still water in Falcon, Colorado.
Pull one up. Read slowly. There is no hurry here.
When, Not If
He is speaking to a man who has not yet failed, about a failure he can already see coming, and he is calmly making plans for what that man will do on the other side of it. Not if you come back. When you come back, go and hold up somebody else.
"And when you have turned again, strengthen your brothers." (Luke 22:32)
Notice what Jesus assumes. He does not say, if you turn again. He says, when. He is speaking to a man who has not yet failed, about a failure he can already see coming, and he is calmly making plans for what that man will do on the far side of it. Not if you come back, but when you come back, go and hold somebody else up.
There is no shaming in that sentence, and there is no lowering of the standard either. There is only a Savior who knows exactly what Peter is, and exactly what Peter will do, and exactly what Peter will become afterward, and who is already assigning him work. No matter how low or how far you have fallen, you can stand again in the keeping power of Jesus. You can turn back. You can lift your eyes to the cross.
But you cannot lift your eyes to the cross while you refuse to take them off yourself. That is the whole obstacle, and it is worth naming precisely. It is not the sin. The sin is handled, paid, finished. It is the pride that insists on staying down in the dirt inspecting the sin, because to get up and walk back would mean admitting that Someone else already covered it. So get up. Someone further along the road is waiting for you to strengthen them, and you cannot do it from down there.
Pride Is Dead Faith
It amazes me that Christians can know in their heads that we ought to be people of prayer and then never quite find the time for it.
"Simon, Simon, behold, Satan demanded to have you, that he might sift you like wheat." (Luke 22:31)
It is a strange thing that a Christian can know in his head that he ought to be a person of prayer and still never quite find the time for it. We know the reason, too, and we simply refuse to change it. We do not pray because our faith is not as high as we imagine, and our estimate of ourselves is higher than it should be. We are full of a quiet pride, and pride and prayer cannot hold the same heart at the same time.
Ask what keeps a person from repenting, and the answer is pride. Ask what keeps a person from seeking forgiveness, and the answer is pride. Ask what makes a person refuse to pray, and the answer has not changed. Pride is more natural to us than prayer, because pride removes the sense of need. As long as a man is self-sufficient and comfortable, he has no reason to ask God for anything, and if he is honest, no real desire for him either. It is only when a man knows he is powerless that he grows willing to listen to Christ and go and do what he says.
That is why prayerlessness is not mainly a problem of the calendar. It is a problem of pride. Prayer interrupts a man in the middle of his own ambition and requires him to confess he cannot manage his life alone, and pride will do almost anything to avoid that confession.
And here is the sharp end of it. A faith that will not bend to the grace and power of the cross is not faith at all, but a forgery, and it was minted by pride. Pride is dead faith. So do not first go hunting for more time to pray. Go hunting for the pride that has been quietly telling you that you do not need to.