One Word Short

"Nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done." (Luke 22:42)

Most of our prayers stop one word short. We are very good at the first half. Father, take this from me. Father, heal her. Father, fix the thing that is breaking me. That half is honest and right, and Jesus prayed it himself, so no one can tell you that wanting relief is a failure of faith.

But he did not stop there, and we do. We pray up to the nevertheless and then go quiet, because the nevertheless is where a prayer stops being a request and becomes a surrender, and surrender is the one thing a person cannot do halfway. To say yet is to hand over the outcome. It is to say, I have told you what I want, and I meant every word of it, and I am not pretending I did not want it, and I am giving you the last word anyway.

That is not resignation. Resignation says it does not matter. Yet says it matters enormously, and you matter more. The two could not be further apart, though from the outside they can look the same. We do not always get there. Some nights we stop at the cup, unable to say the harder word, and even then we are in good company, because he sweated blood before he could say it. But do not settle at the cup as though it were the summit. Pray the whole prayer. Add the word that costs you the outcome, and discover that the God you handed it to can be trusted with it.